I hope everyone's December is off to a great start! The countdown to the holiday season seems to have come around faster than usual this year 🎄⛄. Today's blog post is the ninth chapter from Spell Tracker. Luca attempts to make friends with Cass while doing his best not to be distracted by Devin. Unfortunately, neither situation works out quite the way he wants it to!
You can catch up on earlier chapters by using the New series label at the top of this post, and thank you very much for reading 💕
(Update: October 2019. Spell Tracker is now available in full via the New series label. Just scroll down to the bottom of the page to start 📙)
to convince myself it wasn’t so bad. My mind refused to play along. I couldn’t
stop thinking about the code of conduct I should be following.
an undergraduate magician goes earthbound, their future profession in the
magical dimensions is preselected. The choices/lessons they will encounter as
they reincarnate their way along a personalized earthbound life path are set in
stone and cannot be manipulated by any guardian.
didn’t know it, but the earthbound dimension was a precise illusion, created
from layer upon layer of spellwork. He was here to live a few lives and qualify—or
not—for his chosen profession. When he graduated, his magical identity would simply
leave. My presence was already something of a glitch in his life path.
guardian may disperse negative emotion and/or remind a magician of their
potential, but may not show a magician what to do for the best. The earthbound
dimension tests non-magical skills, and each undergraduate has to remain
ignorant of their magical identity, the magical dimensions, and their intended
path to graduation. Guardians are to be invisible and impartial at all times.
perhaps I was more than a glitch. But I was going to be very careful. I had to
make this work.
assignments are chosen at random from a list of undergraduate magicians living
in the earthbound dimension at any given time. There is no bias in the
selection process, irrespective of a magician’s intended profession, their
perceived risk of failure, and their status in the magical dimensions. Furthermore,
a guardian may not be assigned to any magician with whom they have a personal
broken a major rule by deliberately looking for Cass. I knew her, and I was
here because her chance of success was low.
will acknowledge all seven professions—Spell Masters, Healers, Spell Masons,
Spell Techs, Spell Brewers, Spell Weavers, Animal Mages—and treat them equally.
Guardians may not favor one profession over another, no matter the relative
life path difficulties and/or rewards of each profession.
my conscience was clear on that part. I didn’t care about Cass’s future profession.
Unfortunately, the clause had a second section.
High Council recognizes that Spell Masters and Healers are elite professions
attracting significant privilege. In order to discourage fortune hunters,
magicians aspiring to these professions will therefore be bound to a Spell
Tracker contract with life-limiting penalties for failure. A guardian may not
prevent the Spell Tracker from carrying out this contracted penalty should one
of their assignments fail to graduate.
my teeth. Cass was not going to end up in his hands. I could only hope he
would be satisfied with my life instead if I failed to help her learn the requisite
life lessons and graduate successfully.
first two weeks at Sherbourne High passed so quickly. Two weeks gone already
out of fourteen weeks in the semester. To the average high school student it was
a lifetime. To me, fourteen weeks was nothing. I’d never completed an
assignment so quickly before.
was not exactly an average assignment. Even if I’d been helping her in the
normal way, from my own dimension, I would probably have lost her. As it was,
though, I was screwed. My attempts to become her friend achieved nothing. No,
that’s not quite true. They’ve made her dislike me even more than she already
ignored my efforts at small talk. Polite conversation was never really my
forte, but I tried. I asked her about things like books, music, Netflix, and
college. On one disastrous occasion, running out of ideas, I managed to combine
a comment about politics with one about the weather, at which point she gave me
a disbelieving look and walked out.
didn’t appear to have any friends. She seemed to view Devin with the same
animosity as she did everyone else, perhaps even more so. She didn’t want to
talk about anything. Every single question I asked her was met with
the first week I changed my approach and stopped asking questions, talking
about myself instead. That was better, temporarily. She was interested in
Europe, even asking me a question about the Globe Theater in London and what it
was like inside a replica of an Elizabethan playhouse.
have to fake my enthusiasm. Even back in the seventeenth century, when girls
were not permitted to act on the stage and the crush of unwashed bodies gave
out an aroma that would stun an elephant, the playhouse had an immediacy and an
energy to it that modern theater lacked.
ruined it. Conscious of how little time I had, I listened to the anxiety in my
heart rather than the years of training in my head. I tried to go beyond casual
conversation, and I did it way too soon. I can only cringe at how clumsily I mentioned
other things we might have in common.
know what I expected her to say. Oh, you come from a broken home? That’s
awesome! I come from a broken home too! We should be best friends!
have either pitied me for my oversharing and tragic lack of social skills, or
thought that I was making it up as some kind of spectacularly inept way to get
into her pants. She walked out again before I could figure out which it was.
we had practiced together as Benedick and Beatrice four times, not counting the
two other occasions when she’d left before we could get started. We met most
days after school in one of the empty classrooms. Miss Randall had given us two
additional scenes to learn for the following week’s lesson, when we would
audition officially for our parts in the play.
without a confirmation text message, I could have guessed that he had
“helped” Miss Randall with her choices. The two scenes might have been
hand-picked to cause me the maximum amount of disorientation.
problem was that when I performed them properly I was almost on my knees by the
time we finished, confused, desperate, and unable to differentiate between my
past and my present. The classroom would shimmer around me, and it took all my
strength to prevent it from turning into the training area in the Ludus
Magnus. The area I’d just happened to share with Cass.
a lose-lose situation in the making. If she recognized the Ludus, she’d
probably remember it all, and it would be game over. If she didn’t recognize
it, she’d probably freak out. I mean, who wouldn’t? Don’t worry, Cass, it’s
just that I’m a Light Mage and I can’t seem to control my magic around you.
end of the second week I came up with the idea to protect myself with a spell
before performing. Unfortunately, my ability to act disappeared as soon as the
spell was in place. I was as wooden as the rudis I’d used when I was a
gladiator-in-training, sleepwalking through the lines with no passion
was that?” she asked, putting her hands on her hips.
a serious question?”
er… trying something new,” I said.
talking to me. This was the most engaged she’d been since her question about
the Globe. Usually she just nodded at the end of each scene and we moved on.
reached behind me for one of the chairs and sat down. I had the beginnings of an
know that, right?” she added. “It was awful.”
twisted the hem of my sleeve around my wrist and kept my eyes on the floor. “The
thing is… I find you quite intimidating,” I said.
never discuss the play. I have no idea what you think or how to improve what
ridiculous.” She hesitated. “It’s not my responsibility to make you feel good
that’s not what I said.” I looked up. At least I could now make eye contact without
worrying about the consequences, given that I was prevented from making any new
connections. “I just want to talk to you about the dialogue so we can do the
best job possible at our audition.”
deliberately mess up that scene?”
said truthfully. “I was trying something new.”
get that.” I risked a smile. “But does that mean it was good before? And could
we make it better?”
down opposite me. “Maybe. I don’t know. What were you thinking?”
were having a conversation about how we could improve our respective
performances. I was careful to keep my comments to the play and only the play.
Nothing personal this time. After we’d discussed our acting, we moved on to the
your view on Benedick’s motivation?” she asked. “Is he deliberately horrible to
Beatrice because he’s secretly attracted to her?”
looked me up and down. Is she asking about Benedick or me?
said. Do I find her attractive? Gods, Luca, don’t go there. Anyway, I’ve never… with a girl. Except… I would with her. I… what?
she repeated. “That’s all you’ve got?”
Sorry. He does think she’s attractive. He says as much to his friend Claudio. I
think it’s more that they have a history and he’s being defensive.”
shifted her chair closer. “How do you know they have a history?”
talks about it. What does she say, again? Something like he won her heart with
false dice and she ended up losing her own heart and his too.”
I didn’t know that. I haven’t read the whole play yet. So… he’s an asshole,
blinked. “Calm down. It’s not real.”
don’t think their relationship is black and white like that. They’re both as
bad as each other. It’s no one’s fault.”
Very charitable of you, but trust me. It’s always someone’s fault.”
so much to ask her why she would say that. It was the first hint she’d given me
of what was going on inside her head. Who did she blame, and for what? Herself,
or someone else? With an effort of will Hercules himself would have been proud
of, I said nothing.
does Beatrice give him another chance?” she asked. “Is it just because he
offers to avenge her cousin Hero’s honor?”
but it’s so much more than that,” I said. “She asks him to prove his love by
challenging his best friend to a duel. And he has to do it based on her
word alone. As far as he knows, his friend has done nothing wrong.”
forward. “It’s a defining moment between them. He asks, ‘Think you in your soul
the Count Claudio hath wronged Hero?’
replies, ‘Yes, as sure as I have a thought or a soul.’ If you deliver
that line effectively, the audience will be on the edge of their seats.”
I knew it
by heart. Magicians had excellent memories, and I’d reread the play the night
after that first Drama class.
tilted her head, considering. I waited, worried I’d overdone the enthusiasm,
but then she broke into a smile. It was so unexpected and so beautiful I could
she said. “I’ll read the play and let you know what I think next week.”
I returned her smile. It turned out smiling was more complicated than I’d
realized. The more I tried for sincere and low-key, the more I feared I was
veering toward creepy.
threw caution to the winds and said, “Concesso,” but lost my nerve
before the word reached my tongue. She left the classroom with a promise to message
me if she came up with anything new over the weekend.
my head into my hands, I sighed. Had I made the right decision? I was
second-guessing everything. Concesso was a serious spell, designed to
immobilize an assignment without them actually losing consciousness. From their
perspective they would just zone out for a few seconds—nothing too scary. The
earthbound frequently did that anyway.
Concesso would enable me to look at her life path,
which I could only do when she was awake. Cass wasn’t like Mr. Mason. I couldn’t
expect her to stand by obediently while I inspected her energy. Not to mention
that her armor was so thick she would probably feel me doing it.
to see her life path. I needed to see it. Without a connection, her life
path was my next best hope of learning enough to be able to help her. But I
hadn’t used a single spell on Cass yet, and every time I came close, I
chickened out. I’d convinced myself I would somehow be playing into his
hands if I did so. I was sure that the minute I used any magic on her, my phone
would chime and it would be too late to undo the damage I would have caused.
had been no more restrictions since the first four. No more texts. At first
their absence had been welcome and I thought perhaps he was done. Then I
realized how stupid I was being. He was a master manipulator. There was an
agenda to everything he did. I would never figure it out because my magic did
not work like his. His silence had to be deliberate.
shadows bent to his will as easily as the light obeyed mine. He might not cross
over, but his influence was powerful nonetheless. There was more than enough
darkness in the earthbound dimension for that. And I’d agreed to a magical
contract. I’d given him more power than he would usually have.
I resolved to use a simple spell the next time
Cass and I were alone. I had to try. Feeling better at having made a decision, I
lifted my head and gave a start of surprise.
was standing in the doorway.
said, the smile sliding off my face when he didn’t return it.
I’d been about to deny it, but I changed my mind about lying to him. I hadn’t
avoided him so much as I’d hidden behind a subtle, “Non video,” to make
sure he never quite noticed me outside the classroom. “Maybe a bit,” I added.
“I thought after what happened you might want some space.”
like I can’t deal with you and Cass at the same time. More like I need some
space from you.
like you want some space,” he retorted. Heat rose up my neck and into my
cheeks at how easily he saw through me. I’d been nervous of my feelings. It
wasn’t the connection so much—I’d made plenty of those before. I’d fallen for
assignments, even. The problem came from being earthbound. It was the way this
physical covering was becoming part of me. I didn’t trust myself with him.
right. I’m sorry.”
have any idea how difficult these two weeks have been?” He took a couple of
steps into the room. “Your messages were all so polite. I thought I was
losing my mind. Spells on teachers, snow falling backstage, the best kiss I’ve
ever… I mean… did I imagine it? If you laugh at me right now, I’ll hit you.”
I held up
my hand to my mouth to hide the smile that had reappeared when he’d mentioned
our kiss. As my fingers touched my lips, the memory of it obliterated every
other thought in my head.
connection between our magic was making my skin tingle. I was hyperaware of
everything. The sound of his breathing. His emotions. The color of his eyes.
The light on his skin. Having a physical covering is dangerous.
look at me like that,” he said.
He walked up to me. “Like you looked at me before you kissed me last time.”
it’s my turn.” He put his hands on my shoulders and moved them up and inward
until they were resting on my bare neck. One of his thumbs stroked my
collarbone. “Shit,” I muttered. “What are you doing to me?”
his head slightly. “I was going to ask you the same question.”
Then he kissed me and I forgot anything else I might have been going to say.
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